Things I am glad I did in Dec holidays this year :
1. Sending the Christmas Card to Grandma Disa - Finally, after 2 years
2. Purchased new dining tables and chair and sideboard
3. Watched Silent the Japanese drama - My Christmas present
4. Spent one day with Pei Lee just chillin at Starhill
5. Gave the books to Book Exchage after compiling them since October
6. Gave away the breadmaker
Shinzo Abe was shot and died today. I feel sad for him. No one should die this way.
It's the start of wpp holidays today.
I had breakfast at sugarlane.
I deposited my tax relief.
I printed my passport receipt.
I fixed my hair (finally) after 4 months.
I had keto cocoa with avocado cheese cake. They were not super nice, but the experience of trying something new was enjoyable.
I got angry because I was not making the progress I hope for during cello practice.
So I got angrier when I saw my family didn't appreciate the food I cook.
Then I realised the purpose of me cooking was so that we save money and the kids eat proper food. As long as that purpose was served, I don't need the appreciation.
I realised it's futile to always expect appreciation from others. Most of the time, we will never get it.
Still things need to be done.
I learnt something about being a real adult by reading Mark Manson's book.
My family didn't notice my new hair. I spent RM400 on it. I think I look stunning. Thank goodness I did it for myself.
Today is a good day. π
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Today I accept that my sister's life is as the way it is. No more thinking it should be better, she should be doing this and that..
Today I accept that I will always feel fear when my sister is in trouble or distress.
Today I accept that fear will always be there, I will stand with it side by side.
Today I accept that I have my own way of soothing myself, other methods may work for other people, I will do it my way and it works.
Today I tell myself that Althea, you have done your best. You have always been trying.
Today I feel my voice is stronger and more comforting. I am enough.
Lobak died today.
I cried with my sister.
I dunno how long it's going to take for her to walk out of grief.
After I left her house, I saw a car with the car plate ALT 217.
Its my initial and my lucky number.
God is telling me he is looking out for me. π
I realised the reason I like to speak in public or whenever there is a sharing session, it's because I don't have many chances to speak at home.
I am always listening to my mum, sister and friends complaining. Often I wonder why they don't ask how I am doing. It's not like I lead a perfect life.
I listen to them complain so much that I relish the opportunity of having someone listening to me.
Today I am glad to know my parents have started drawing up their wills.
My husband warned me that being the executioner will require a lot of work.
I am just happy that something I put off for so long finally gets done.
I will cross the bridge when I get there.
