Behind every No, there is a reason

 I have decided to stop beating myself up for not moving out of the company.

I used to resent myself for being weak and not daring to venture out. 

I have come to realise that if I am another person, I wont be so hard on him/her. 

There are always reasons behind every decision. 

For me, not moving out probably showed my lack of confidence in my abilities and my fears of failing.

It also showed that I needed a lot of security and stability.

So I may have lost opportunities by staying put, but I have definitely gained as well. 

Day 21 - What do I actually want?

 The final day. 

Most of the days I just filled up what as on my mind, just for the sake of filling up.

I will do a compilation to see what insights I can get out of the 21 days.

Last day want :

1. Reduce my cholestrol to below 5

2. Lose weight till 51kg.

Day 20 - What do I actually want?

 For the first time, I am writing about my daughters.

I want to spend at least a month just travelling with my daughters. Just enjoying their company. 

Day 19 - What do I actually want?

 I want to be focused on what I like. Not caring about what others think and what they think of me. I have wasted too much time being safe and careful.

Day 18 - What do I actually want?

 1. I want to lose weight. Target is 51kg.

2. I want to drink 2L of waters per day.

3. I want to sleep for at least 7 hours per day.

4. I want to work and stay in a foreign city for 1 year.

5. I want to face the things I fear a little at a time until I overcome my fear.              

6. I want to have RM100k in my savings account by 31st Dec 2021.

Day 17 - What do I actually want?

 I want to sleep 

Day 16 - What do I actually want?

 1. I want to learn negotiation skills

2. I want to lose weight. My goal is 51kg now. 

3. I want to drink 2litres of water each day. 

4. I want to stay and work in Shanghai for a year. 

5. I want to learn to speak and read Japanese. 

6. I want to have RM100k savings in my bank account by end December 2021.