New worries

I didnt sleep well last night becos of coffee and the cats wanting to get into our room.

I received messages from my sister and friend-Anne in the morning which brought bad news.

I could feel the anxiety rising in me. As usual, when it comes to my sister. My stomach churned. And I had to go to the toilet. As usual.

Besides my sister's problem with her boyfriend, I am worried that my sister will be willing to take the vaccination because my mother offer to give her RM1k. Despite having strong convictions that the vaccination is a hoax, she is now willing to do it for money. I feel scared that what she resort to in future to get money. I pray that she will maintain her limits when it comes to safety and dignity.

She said she plans to stay in a hotel tonight to avoid seeing her boyfriend.

Under the current circumstances, it will be good for her to move out. She has been under a lot of stress and verbal abuse for a very long time.

She said her boyfriend has not been this angry before. To me, it's the same situation as before. 

I cant concentrate much on work because of the anxiety.

I can only keep on praying.

I feel calmer after writing this down.