Can't see distress

 I realise that most of the time it's not that my sister or my mum is facing some life- threatening situations, it's my fear of seeing them feel sad, disappointed, angry, that causesy anxiety.

Can't bear to see your loved ones sad. I thought those corny lines only appear in soap dramas. It's what happened to me

Emotions are part of life. Let my sister and mum have a run of it too. They are venting it in front of me because I care. I bet it did not to occur to them that I would be greatly affected too.

I hurt too. 

Choose to be grateful

 It has been a stressful and tiring 5 days. At the end of a work week, I am choosing to be grateful.

I am thankful that my sister managed to eat some rice and porridge today. I hope her condition improves soon.

I am thankful that my younger daughter is so bubbly and adorable.

I am thankful that my older daughter is wise beyond her years.

I am thankful that I have friends like Beelui, Meer and Janice whom I can share my worries of my sister with.

I am thankful that my husband is calm and steady when I am stressed out.

I am thankful that Janice was able to help arrange for the monks to pray for my sister.